Description
From Chapter 79, “Awakening,” of It’s Impossible by J H McIntosh — Act III: Trust and Letting Go.
It hits Aaron like being run over by a freight train. Belle's aloofness leads him to believe that she has completely lost interest in him. For Aaron, it's a moment of abrupt reflection, of coming face-to-face with a realization he has been blind. The song explores the delicate space between longing and acceptance, capturing the subtle shift when feelings are no longer mirrored but become something different, something released. Its sobering tone offer a reminder that, while tough to do, letting go can be an act of grace and self-discovery. As you listen, sit with tender emotions, hoping for the promise of new beginnings.
Lyrics
It’s 3:15, you’re in the house,
Same roof, same air, I slow my mouth.
Sunlight drags the floor in gold,
I walk toward you feeling bold.
Purpose in my stride, heart open wide,
First sight of you feels sanctified.
Hunter green against your skin,
I lose again before I’m in.
Your back is turned, your phone held close,
A softer tone than mine knows most.
I wait, I breathe, I hold my ground,
But I’m not who that warmth is found.
I was the mirror, not the face,
A holding pattern, not the place.
Once I was wonder, now I’m known,
That’s when the spell is overthrown.
I clear my throat, I speak your name,
You answer like it’s just a game.
First page read, nothing untrue,
Nothing said that’s meant for you.
Your smile blooms for words unseen,
A look I know, but not for me.
That’s when the picture snaps in two,
I was the lens, not the view.
I was the mirror, not the face,
A quiet stop along the race.
Once I was fire, now I’m stone,
That’s when the spell is gone.
I wished you well, I walked away,
Illusions don’t get to stay.
What I loved was something drawn,
A spell I named… and now it’s gone.
Now is gone, now is gone,
No longer to live on.
