Description
From Chapter 53, “Ecstasy,” of It’s Impossible by J H McIntosh — Act II: Soul to Soul.
"I watch my heart, but still it beats your name, every defense I raise just burns in flame," shows Aaron has no control over his love for Belle. As he has said, this is not the kind of love you choose. The song's a quiet, tender reflection on enduring love and the courage it inspires. It reminds us how even when distance and doubt arise, the heart’s true feelings remain unwavering. This song gently embraces the power of kindness and hope, showing that love’s impact transcends outcomes and continues to nurture from within. Listening to it invites a moment of sincere connection, encouraging us to hold onto the light that love kindles, no matter the path ahead.
Lyrics
I try to put distance between my heart and you,
But where the road always leads is nothing new.
I step away to spare myself the fall,
Absence increases the ache after all.
I tell my heart this space is meant to heal,
But every quiet moment proves what’s real.
There’s no escape from loving you this way,
No other could ever make my heart stray.
I watch my heart, but still it beats your name,
Every defense I raise just burns in flame.
My work has always pulled me through the night,
A stubborn faith that small deeds still ignite.
I know I’m not the One upon the world depends,
But acts of kindness travel further than they bend.
If all I ever do is light a spark,
Then let it shine against the forbidding dark.
Even if hope of “us” should disappear,
That call to serve still keeps me standing here.
Before you came, I swore no love could test,
The road God set before me, unaddressed.
But if I crossed that line without your hand,
The win would feel like dust inside my hands.
I’m not asking you to save the day,
Only to walk if love should choose your way.
When your eyes meet mine and truly see,
It feels like heaven leaning into me.
I carry that joy carefully inside,
Afraid of what happens if love’s denied.
I dream of kisses stolen out of sight,
Five minutes that would set my soul a flight.
I wake and know it’s been but a dream,
Yet dreams can show the heart what gleams.
If you never walk beside me through the years,
Love for you overcomes all my doubts and fears.
Not because returned love answered my soul,
Because loving you forever made me whole.
Unclaimed or not, this fire stays the same,
Forever and forever, since you lit that flame.
