Description
From Chapter 76, “Peace,” of It’s Impossible by J H McIntosh — Act III: Trust and Letting Go.
"You say you don’t want anything, and that’s what scares me most, 'cause wanting nothing feels like love I don’t know how to hold." This song acknowledges the quiet caution that comes from past hurt, the walls built not out of anger but as a fragile shelter from deeper pain. Listening here offers a moment of understanding and warmth for anyone who has felt torn between the desire to trust and the need to stay safe. It reminds us that healing often moves slowly, patiently holding space for hope to quietly grow.
Lyrics
You talk about peace like it’s a place,
Somewhere you arrive and stay.
I’ve only known it as a moment,
Gone before I trust its face.
I don’t doubt that you believe it,
I don’t doubt your steady hand,
But peace has never held me long enough
To make me feel I stand.
I’ve learned not to build my life,
On things that fade too fast,
I don’t lean into quiet moments,
When I know they never last.
Walls don’t leave.
Walls don’t change.
They don’t promise, they don’t break.
They don’t love me, they don’t stay,
But they don’t take more than I can pay.
Call it lonely, call it small,
But it’s the only peace I know at all.
You say you don’t want anything,
And that’s what scares me most,
‘Cause wanting nothing feels like love
I don’t know how to hold.
I know what it is to be desired,
To be wanted for a while,
I don’t know how to tell the difference
Between a hand…
And a trial.
I’ve been adored until I wasn’t,
Valued till I didn’t fit,
Loved until I showed the parts
They didn’t sign up for in it.
Walls don’t leave.
Walls don’t lie.
They don’t look hurt when I don’t try.
They don’t ask me to believe,
That I’m worth a mercy I can’t see.
Call it fear, call it defense,
But it’s safer than hoping again.
You think safety means surrender,
You think trust is where you start,
But every time I reached for peace,
I just handed them my heart.
They always said they were different,
They always were… at first.
Till I disappointed something in them,
And watched it turn to worse.
Maybe you really wouldn’t leave,
Maybe your love won’t run.
But if I’m wrong, I lose more,
Than I’ve ever won.
Walls don’t leave.
Walls don’t change.
They don’t promise, they don’t break.
They don’t love me, they don’t stay,
But they don’t take more than I can pay.
You call it peace, I call it fragile,
You call it safe, I call it slow,
But walls don’t love me…
And walls don’t go.
