Description
From Chapter 60, “The Touch,” of It’s Impossible by J H McIntosh — Act II: Soul to Soul.
Aaron crossed the line, he placed his hands on Belle’s sides. What surprised her most was her reaction. "And I almost leaned into where you stood, almost trusted something that felt too good." This song invites us to experience a quiet and tender moment when restraint weakens. It offers a rare glimpse of connection that doesn’t demand or rush. It explores the feelings stirred by a presence that respects boundaries and honors space, revealing the unexpected power in simply being held without pressure. There’s a difference be wanting to hold another and acting on that desire, it’s called restraint.
Lyrics
I felt you before you touched my side,
The room moves wherever you reside.
My body knew before my mind caught up,
A change in the air that wouldn’t let up.
A quiet pull, one I couldn’t ignore,
I’ve felt danger before, but this wasn’t that door.
It wasn’t fear that made me freeze,
It was something I couldn’t conceive.
Not asking, not trying to take control,
Just expressing your desire to hold.
I should’ve turned, I should’ve snapped,
Said something sharp to close the gap.
But your hands weren’t reaching in,
They weren’t taking…and that’s what did me in.
Because I know what wanting feels like,
I know the weight of a hungry touch at night.
But yours just stayed, no hidden demand,
Like offering something I didn’t understand.
I waited for the moment you’d lean in,
For patience to crack, for need to win.
But you didn’t move, you didn’t ask,
You let the silence do the task.
My breath slowed down against my will,
My walls came loose, my body still.
And that scared me more than the rest,
Because nothing was taken, nothing was pressed.
And I almost leaned into where you stood,
Almost trusted something that felt too good.
Almost asked you not to go,
Almost said what you seem to know.
You stepped back first, that’s just like you,
Said you were sorry, I didn’t know what to do.
Not for leaving. Not for the space.
But for what you stirred that I couldn’t place.
I don’t know what waits if I let this start,
But I almost see what it means… to hold.
